Are you ready? A Tale About Change

...is the one question She will never ask.

There are times, when I’m restlessly waiting with bated breath for her to show up. Anew.

Catching a glimpse of Her silhouette on the horizon, I’m rushing eagerly towards Her only to learn there are no arms wide open awaiting me.

She yields away from my rosy gaze.

“I’m weary from the road, where’s the shower?” She mutters, passing me by oblivious to my endeavor.

And when She returns, Oh my! Not looking like the friendly girl next door anymore…

She’s a superstar, hot shot, top notch, world class femme fatale.

I want to flee!

Far far away from her piercing eyes.

I’m feeling useless, ugly and clumsy, yearning to find the refuge under my bedsheets trying to convince myself, that my life is awesome just the way it is and I don’t need nor want to change anything about it!

But I’m not fooled by her looks, this Goddess does not hesitate to get her polished nails chipped.

She’d grab me by my hair and drag me trough the rocky trail. There will be pain and tears and blood.

And relief, liberation, sunrise, waterfall, field and forrest, river and sea and a rainbow. There even will be

a pink fluffy unicorn dancing on that damn rainbow only for me. After all.

If only I will allow myself to be dragged out of that bed. 

Or even better, what if I will find the courage not to run away at the first place?

Either way, it’s worth it.

Change is my only certainty in life.